A R M T H G F - Absence Really Makes The Heart Grow Fonder?
I seriously do wonder. Haha. Its been a long time man.. as i stared back into the depths of my handphone. But well, it could probably be this that i have finally woken up. I can now relate to the process
1st Stage --> You start hating a person and you dont tell the reason to him/ her and get each other so frustrated and u swore upon yourself that u will not care, you will not contact anymore.
2nd Stage --> You start to loosen up a little and begin thinking: Maybe i should just forgive the person. After all technically he/she did not do anything wrong and so i should just forget about it. It could probably just be due to oversensitivity on my part. And then the contemplation about whether to start the friendship again comes in.
3rd Stage --> Now this is divided into 2 different groups i believe
- 1st group: I start the conversation first and everything soon goes back to normal again hoping for a happily ever after only for the 3 cycles to repeat.
- 2nd group: Im still not gonna give a damn and the person apparently not giving any hoot about me also did not even contact me so since he/she doesnt bother.. i dont see my point in doing so as well ^^
Well lets just say dat after countless cycles, it is time to finally break out of it? Haha. Ive really got so sick and tired of this existence of emotion that makes the thing in the left portion of ur chest go so heavy. Day in day out worrying about shit that shouldnt even be important in your life at all. Not saying that you did anything wrong but u can blame me for being selfish. I really dont want myself to continue. This leading on, this hope that keeps getting crushed. Maybe you did believe in it for a few more times but somehow it just did not happen. Oh wells, im really wondering where it will all go from here... is this really worth the friendship? =) ive yet to pray and figure.. guess i need more time out.
God i really need an answer!
"Without darkness, there can be no light. Without suffering, there can be no happiness. Without hate, there can be no you."
