Sometimes i begin to think. Whether it was wrong of me to do such a thing and whether it is possible to reverse things all over again. But then again, it would just be fucking selfish as it would be like i happy then i do this and when im not happy then i dont. So why should people adhere to what i like and according to how i feel when i myself hardly consider other people's feelings and emotions in the picture. To date, i only have this to say to myself. Im a failure, a great failure. A good for nothing because i excel in nothing but bullshitting and offering lip service. I promise i would do this and promise i would do that. Yes i would do in the end, but due to my procrastination and lazy ways, i would only offer my very last minute best effort in almost everything i do for others. I am born selfish la. its not like i could help it, i am trying hard to change, I DO I DO!!! but i dont think it is enough. Always letting my emotions into everything and getting flared up and hot tempered and easily irritated. Thing is sometimes i do know that i might have been in the wrong. But i do reason that it takes two hands to clap. With that.. have i really signed the warrant that confirmed the destruction of two of my most precious friendships in this life time?
*When all hope seems lost, i yearn to see your light my Lord*
