" You will learn how mastering your feelings is one of the most powerful things you can do "
Quoted in the book 'The 7 Best Things (Smart) Teens Do' Oh well. Emotion undoubtedly in teenage years are one of the driving forces to why most teenages live and die. Whether it turns out positively or negatively largely depends on your upbringing and your natural outlook on life as a whole. A pessimist will forever be a pessimist. Just like how one can look at a cup of water and actually judge whether it is half empty or half full. Why do we do the things we do? Why are we so often caught up and overwhelmed by our emotions and most of this are due to petty things done by others? More often than not. We always feel we are right and we do things accordingly, having done so.. have u ever asked yourself. Do we argue that it is right because we have already done it?
Once again, human feelings have stepped beyond my calculations and in fact.. beyond almost every other scientists calculations. It can only be predicted and felt. Humans are really interesting beings. Why do positive emotions and thinking always lead us to greater and higher potential than what we conceive is possible? Why do we defy the laws of physics and calculations when our feelings come into the picture? Why isit that feelings are often the cause of pain, anger, hatred, self-pity that result in the many forms of suicide we see in today's modern world? All the stress built up from the intense competition built up by a meritocratic Singapore has caused quite an increase in the number of suicide cases. Thus I conclude that positive thinking is indeed very necessary. Yes we do feel tired after awhile, we do feel that in certain circumstances, all the hope in the world is lost. But let me tell u.. the situation is UNIMPORTANT!!! What matters is what you decide to do with your life. What matters is the plans ahead. What matters is actually the goal that you have at the end. The goal that you so desire to achieve, to just reach out and grab for it and when you have finally achieved it, you would realise that it was the journey that really mattered. The positivity that carried you through all the ordeals and knowing that there is a Supernatural presence out there who is able to aid you in any times of need. The One and Only God.
Many a time, I do try my best and pray sincerely for things to go my way. And when things do not, i often blame myself. Many people tell me its alright. Everything is ok. Just a word sorry will do. Thing is, whenever i feel i am right. Someone always comes along and tells me i am wrong. Or rather, why do i always feel i am in the wrong? Why do i always give in?! WHY AM I SO SOFT HEARTED?! and when i try to be hard hearted, something always strikes me as what gives me the right to actually teach this person what he or she should do and act with his or her life. Just to make me happier. I am one great asshol-ic attention seeker. I do nothing but flare up and get angry with people only to expect that a worrd of apology would suffice at the end and everything would be ok only for the whole process to repeat itself once more. So i would seriously like to ask. Does the fault lie with me? Am i really unable to maintain close friendships with people? Why do i feel more at ease confiding in people whom i do not contact often and not that close to? I finally understand why. Because it is YOU that i confide about. Thats why i have nothing to talk to you about. How saddening that it should come to this stage. This pathetic stage in our lives where i play such an insignificant role in yours. With that, i do not see why u should play a significant role in my life as well. Lets just waste these few years of friendship and i shall erase this passage of time from my memory. So that finally, beautiful memories may be able to fill it up once more since my childhood days.
*Why is it that what i feel always contradicts what i should do?*
