Whats this stupid feeling that keeps coming back? this feeling of jealousy and fucked up nonsense. So many times.. it nvr ceases to haunt me once again. Isit just me? Or isit the other party? Or both?
Just to let it all out. Im jus sick and tired of this fucking shit. i just wanna shout "FUCK IT ALL AWAY!" but its still residing within me. The ability to turn negative emotions into motivation is indeed one that is rather hard but i feel ive been able to do it. Studying has really helped my mind keep off stuff.. doing phy and maths help me divert my attention from reality problems to actual problem sums that keeps my mind active and logical which helps me to not act based on my emotions or rather be numb and non-chalant about everything else.
Whats all these empty promises that keep coming my way? DONT PROMISE ME SOMETHING WHICH U ARENT SURE U ARE CAPABLE OF DOING!!! For the greater the expectation from the promise.. the greater the DAMN disappointment. Why the fuck can u not see such a fucking thing? Not only is ur skin thick, ur skull is fucking thick too u insensitive bitch. Get it into that thick head of yours. Acting like everything is ok and alright will get you nowhere. Ive had better frens and shared deeper friendships with people i contact at least 10 times lesser. Such a superficial friendship i can say is almost not worth my time. I cant believe i actually fell for such things at face value and i thought it actually had some real meaning to me when im still stuck at the crust after so long. Took me like forever to see such a thing coming. *YAWNS!* Seriously, i feel im not even fit enough to be an acquiantance. For your benefit and mine too.
Well moving on. School has been really sucky lately.. been one helluva shit week this week. Mon Wed and Fri all had tests which drained me mentally and i ran thru-out from mon to fri which drained me physically. Tho im not really looking forward to an early night tonite.. im more of looking forward to a late brunch the following morning. =) Gotta start revision soon. Do not exactly have much time to go thru and revise stuffs. Have to depend on yourself for revision. Wish they had revision night classes for every subject like physics. Think its a very great help to the students. ^^ Haha. I just realised dat its been a long time since i touched dota. WOOOOOOOO. maybe shall go plae one match or something and den i'll try to find some stuff to do online b i actually want to hit the sack. So for now...
tata~
*The End Seems Scarier Than It Had Ever Been*
