" As the New replaces the Old. The Old simply have to accept the reality of being forgotten. "
Have we ever pondered.. how sometimes when we make new friends, we inevitably neglect the ones we have at the moment. Just like how at one stage, i did not even noe that i made shawn feel neglected when i suddenly got very close to eugene at the start of last yr. Is dat all most frenship is worth? Do we just.. forget about our old frens jus because they have turned stale, boring and a relationship retardedly tough to maintain because our new fren is more interesting, exciting and fun to be with? The conclusion i have come up with is that, it is ok to make new friends. But at this age, the friends that we make are already very limited. How much can we trust a person we recently met, do we even noe he or she that well? I have decided gravely that, the circle of friends that i have now, will continue being my friends for life. if i have neglected u in any way, please feel free to tell me. i do not want to lose another close friend... but of course, if u r not interested in maintaining this friendship with me, then tell me too~ i would ready myself and prepare to give up everything but the beautiful memories that we have shared before. Trust that it would forever stay in this heart of mine...
" Love encompasses all things; a smile hides everything. "
Its strange how people use the word love so freely nowadays. Do people even mean it when they say it? Sarcasm and hypocrites just ruin the meaning of the word when they use it. Love is a deep thing, something dat cannot be understood. Love grants us the ability to give till it hurts and yet continue giving no matter how many times we do get hurt. i am already dying just giving love to a single person and yet as i reflect on the approaching Holy Week. I suddenly realise how great God's love truly is. To continue giving to the whole of mankind who has hurt him. Take the pain of your break up.. and multiply it by the entire world's population. That would b the extent of God's love and yet he has not given up. Im thinking why should i give up?! and yet as i tink this, i have no choice or else i would be consumed by my own overwhelming emotions.
of course, none of u see this because of the smile i maintain on my face each time im outside. The smile that shows "everything is fine! its ok! im happy living my life the way it is! =) =D ^^ =P =]" but thats because I try to forget things when im with people, however, at home.. i do occasionally experience how bitter tears actually taste. Isit ever possible to ever break out of this jail that im ensnared in? Its not about whether i can feel void and remove negative emotions from myself. What i figured out was.. i jus want to be loved.
* Maybe the time has finally arrived to remove all that has been weighing my heart down since it all began... *
